Avoid-first-lover syndrome

I know that my first puppy lover

still stays at a corner of my mind because

she comes to my dream occasionally.   

I cannot avoid her appearance in my dream subconsciously.

In real life, I don't want to come across her anywhere again, as I know that I will become nervous when I see her face. 

I do not want to be disturbed emotionally by her anymore. 

I avoid her appearance in my daily life consciously...   

Chinese Translation

我知道我的第一個小情人
仍然停留在我的腦海裡某一個角落，

因為她偶爾出現在我的夢裏。

我無法阻止躲在我的潛意識裏的她，

在我的夢裏出現。

 但我不想再遇到她，

因為我知道當我看到她，

我會變得很緊張。

我不想再被她打擾我的情緒了。

我很希望她不會在我的眼前出現...

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 Gavin James - Nervous

Gavin James - Nervous

 I promise that I'll hold you when it's cold out
When we loose our winter coats in the spring
'Cause lately I was thinking I never told you
That every time I see you my heart sings'Cause we lived at the carnival in summer
We scared ourselves to death on a ghost train
And just like every ferris wheel stops turning
I guess we had an expiration date
So I won't say I love you, it's too late

Oooooooooh
Ooooohohoooooh
Oooohoooooooh
Ohoooohohohoooooh

'Cause every time I saw you I got nervous
Shivering and shaking at the knees
And just like every song I haven't heard yet no
I didn't know the words in front of me

In front of me ooh
But I don't wanna know
Who'll take you home?
Who'll take you home?
Who'll take you home?
Home
If I let you go
  
Oooooohhhhh
Oooooohhhhh
Oooooohhhhh
Oooooooohooooohoohhhh

Now that you're on someone else's shoulders
The winter winds are colder on my own
Maybe we will meet when we get older
Maybe we won't
So I won't say I love you if you don't
Oh you don't

Oooooohhhhh
So I won't say I love you if you don't